Sometimes, the journey ends quickly -- the person does not wish to continue. They have found what they wanted and are content. Leave it alone, their stubborn mouths cry. They are too scared of what lies behind their soul. Too scared to investigate and dust off those corners of musty-attic heart. The place where no one goes, not even them.
And some people keep going. They carefully peel off the paper-thin wrappings that protect their fragile heart, uncover, dig out their soul and examine it. Scrutinize it meticulously, like a medical student uses tweezers to scrutinize a cadaver. Sometimes they are satisfied with what lies beneath.
But sometimes they are not. They keep searching. Their soul is too dirty, too small, too bare. They are not content.
Why are they not content? Because, on the way to find themselves, they've forgotten something. Something important.
They are not content because they have been relying on other people's opinions. Offering their soul to those they respect, admire, wish to please... only to have their fragile-christmas-ornament soul dashed to the ground in contempt, the pieces flying everywhere, scattered over the cobblestones, as they try to gather them back, stick them together, staunch the flow of disappointment that leaks down in salt-water trails on their face.
It's so easy to forget that other's opinions do not form you. They do not create who you are or what you will become. So stop trying to find yourself in others.
Instead, lose yourself in Jesus.
Because He's the only one that will take your broken soul and find value in it. He'll set the shattered soul ornament on his mantle-piece and proudly display it. Find comfort in Him. For in Him, you will discover who you truly are, who you were meant to be, and who He is to you.
He is your master, your love, your father, your king.
And I am simply His Ordinary Princess. My soul is freed from the bondage of other's opinions, whispers, rumors, stares, and snickers. I find myself in Him.
That is enough, but it is more than I could ever wish for.
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